Perhaps your attendance here is exactly what you need and what you love. Great! Carry on! Enjoy every moment!
But, maybe, it feels like you are disappearing, or disassociating. You are there but your heart is on its real mission somewhere in the clouds.
Tradition causes many seats to be filled. Habit causes its continuity.
It is YOU sitting there, in YOUR time. It is YOU that is responsible for how you use YOUR time. YOU make the call as to what is best, for YOU.
Until you have learnt to think for yourself, you have to abide by the results of your traditions.
The Infinite 